I don’t know what is wrong with me sometimes. I wish I could figure it out. I saw my lowest number yet this weekend 223.4!
I was very happy about it and extra motivated and then the very next day I fall into a sabotage binge-fest. I knew what I was about to do and did it anyway. I was at the store and picked up a pumpkin pie. Then I went over and got some whipped topping. I know my husband would get on to me for this so I opened it up in the car and took out a piece and put whipped cream on it and ate it. I am not usually this bad at binging. I knew I did bad right away and beat myself up mentally over it. I hid the pie in a cloth bag and took it home.
Then I found myself opening it and eating two more pieces because why not… I had already messed up. Might as well get wanting pumpkin pie out of my system. We I actually got a little sick eating the other two pieces so I didn’t touch it for the rest of the day. I ate about 2/3 of the pie. The remaining 1/3 is still in my bag. I have plans to throw it away because I know it was wrong to eat and I am disgusted at myself. I can’t even bring myself to see the damage on the scale today.
What the hell is wrong with me!? I have my weight loss goals and I really want to get there so I don’t understand why I do this to myself.
Today I am back on track. I picked up some green tea to drink so that maybe I can avoid any cravings that will lead to a binge.
If anyone has tips or similar experience tell me about it and how you avoid it. I need all the help I can get. I don’t want to keep doing this to myself.